eighteen means older

have you seen The Sweetest Thing? the one with Cameron Diaz on it?
she said something about age (that makes me laugh EVERYTIME i watch it). about how 'gravity' pulled out muscle and fatty down. it was really funny. i think that's how people measured their age and their elder life.

I was suprised by my age today. I am officially eighteen years old. old enough to decide whether i want to do something or not. this journey of my life made me realized how crazy and and how life is hard. I had a lot of theories in my head right now. i tried to believe what i believe, not knowing yet if it's gonna be the basic of my life or not, cause i change a lot. People change a lot.
I feel like i need to do something in my life. something bigger. something that can make change. I do want to be a great person, just like what I have been prayed. I pray I can be more mature in the future, and wise enough to decide.

i'd love to go back to indonesia, but i really want to go back to study in here. get a job, and build my life in america. I hope someday i can be a cardiologist. and meet my friends again!